The wheel of the year turns toward winter. The days are getting darker and the animals and earth seem to slumber. I realize it has been a while since last posting. I also have found the need to rest and bring my attention inward and to my own home.
Autumn brought our family a roller coaster of loss, heartache, recovery and adventure. My great grandmother, probably the most wonderful and caring human being I ever knew, passed away late September. It was a big loss for my family. Then on the night she died, my father-in-law suffered a heart attack and passed away two days later. My husband and I never felt exhaustion quite like it before… It was soul deep. We wanted to tuck away and hibernate and I think mentally we did. We dropped the ball on many of our projects, stayed home, and cuddled close together with our children.
During that time, I was reminded of all the wonderful people we have around us. We had an anonymous friend deliver a fridge full of groceries, friends offering to watch the kids, meals ready made and delivered to the house for two weeks, and people just making the effort to be there for us. I was filled with love and gratitude.
In October, we went away to our little bungalow time share on Cape Cod. We snuggled close to the little gas fireplace, went for walks around bright red cranberry bogs and empty beaches. The Ocean is so calming and healing with it’s rhythmic flow of waves, and salty sea breeze. It was nice to step out of our normal routine and just be a family having fun. All of our smiles returned.
In November, Earl and I were given an extraordinary gift and for the first time we went away. The kids stayed with my mom and we took a cruise in the Caribbean with a large group of my family. It was an absolute blast! We toured the Atlantis hotel in the Bahamas, kayaked through a mangrove lagoon and snorkeled over the coral reef, in St. Thomas , and relaxed on Waikiki beach, swimming in the most aqua blue waters I have ever seen, in St. Maartin. On the ship, the Oasis of the sea, we ate delicious meals, drank to our hearts content, and shared laugh after laugh with our family. We were treated like royalty all week long. The quiet moments we shared on our balcony over looking the moonlit ocean made us pause, breathe, and remember that despite this incredibly difficult year, we are incredibly blessed!
Now we are in the Christmas season. It feels different this year but in a good way. We are making merry with what we’ve got. I have been decorating the house so much even Martha Stewart might be jealous of my creative awesomeness! ; ) We are hosting Christmas for Earl’s family, and I am both excited and nervous. With all turmoil and loss of the year, I just don’t know what to expect, but I am trying my hardest to prepare and make my home a welcome haven for them. The season just feels warm to me, and I hope to exude that feeling of warmth and love into the atmosphere.
So, even though the winter brings darkness, it also brings a time of rest and stillness. A time to reflect on this roller coaster year. Though I am thankful 2013 is coming to a close, I can’t help but see the incredible amount of personal growth that happened during all the ups and down and how lucky we are to have the friends and family we do.
May peace and plenty be the first to lift
The latch on your door
And happiness be guided to your home
By the light of Christmas
Irish Blessing